Ain’t Nobody Praying for Me…
Certain music should come with a warning label.
Not just the dissonance that fills our airways with mumble-jumbled stanzas laced with “yeah’s” and “aye!” Nah, I’m talking about the deep stuff, the stuff that instantly puts you in your feelings, having you ask life’s deepest questions like you’re Aristotle or Socrates.
Something simple like:
WARNING – side effects may include, crying, sobbing, sneezing, overthinking, deep interpersonal reflection, and guilt-tripping into much needed prayer time.
Kendrick Lamar needs this; not because of derogatory language or explicit content, but because that nigga be cutting a girl deep! Like, why you got to yell so loud?!
You see, I wasn’t in the best mood this past week, in fact, I was depressed… just thinking about my life, where I’m at, where I want to be… you know, the usual. And when I get in these moods, I don’t want to get out of bed or eat for that matter. (Note: if I’m not eating, something is definitely wrong). The only thing I can really pull myself to do is watch something funny on YouTube or listen to music.
Even though I’ve listened to Kendrick Lamar’s fourth studio album, DAMN, pretty much every day since it dropped back in April, I felt a tug in my spirit to not just have it playing as mind-numbing background music, but to really listen to it and read between K. Dot's words. I was taken to track #5 on the album, “FEEL,” and not even 30 seconds in, it felt as if I was listening to the song with new ears. In the record, the Compton rapper has a particular bar that he repeats over and over that says, “Ain’t nobody praying for me. Who praying for me?”
He continues to share the different thoughts that he’s been experiencing and honestly, I’ve never had a song read me (word for word) more than I was/am in this one:
And once he finished getting all his emotions off his chest, he ends with a simple offer, “I feel like the whole world want me to pray for ‘em/but who the **** praying for me?”
Have you ever felt this way?Like you’re putting all of your heart and energy into a space, maybe it’s your family or friends… you uplift, encourage, listen to, support, and even pray for them, but with all that giving, you start to wonder who the heck it pouring back into you?
Even with blogging, writing, or being a creative in general, people look to you for inspiration but don’t realize that by pouring into them, vicariously through the computer screen, you’re giving away a piece of you. With every word, every post, every shareable quote...This is willingly of course, because I chose this life, but still, the question remains, who’s praying for me?
In my time since digesting this song and the meaning it’s taken on for me, I realizes that sometimes you won’t have people in your corner praying for you, pulling for you inner spirit-woman, but you know who you have every time?
You! You have You.
Sometimes you have to encourage your dang self! Thank God for his Word, because he’s given us a an endless supply of scriptures to turn to when our friends are less than deserving of the title and when our family is just too busy to take on our woes.
So do that, encourage yourself, let yourself know that you are more than a conquer (Romans 8:37). That you were fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God (Psalms 139:14). Lean not on you own understanding (Proverbs 3:5) about how you’re going to pay your bills or where your next opportunity is going to come from, for we know all things work together for the good of those that love God and are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you (Phil. 4:13). Don’t worry about anything; instead, rejoice about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done (Phil. 4:6). These alone should be enough to get you out the bed when you don’t see the point or have the energy to hope for that bright future ahead of you.
It was for me.
I encourage you to encourage yourself; to pray for yourself. No one’s going to save you, baby girl. That job was already handled for you by Jesus, on the cross. You have life today, and you have the right to live.
Before you leave: Let me know in the comments below your thoughts on today’s topic; who prays for you? Who are you praying for. I’d love to hear!
Peace, peace, peace,