Lessons Learning: March Notes from AA
Can we just address the elephant in the room? Nicki Minaj has yet to respond to Remy Ma's diss record, SheTher. Now, although I haven't lost complete respect for Nicki, a large majority of it has diminished. This one-sided beef has caused me to ask myself, should I be mad at Nicki?
There's been a lot of discussion around whether she should even respond at this point. Some argue that she's above it; that her album sales, awards, and accolades should be all the response needed. I've also heard that Nicki's deafening silence to the beef could possibly be an upspoken declaration to her separation from the harcore rap life that rose her to stardom, to pursue the mainstream, commercial Pop sectors.
Can we be mad at this?
Well, I was! Until I got to thinking about my own growth and what pieces of me that I may have outgrown that people may still expect me to uphold. Or even the things that I expect of myself that I need to let go of.
March is my birthday month. It's also the anniversary of my move to NYC and when I started my career. In just the year that has passed, I can say I'm not the same person I was when I first moved to the city. I've made a lot of mistakes and was too eager, (among other things) and although I have beat myself up about this, I've also come to embrace my personal transgressions because they're evidence I tried something(s) new.
In 5 days, I'll reach the rightful age of 24 and boy, does that both terrify and excite me. I feel like there comes a time when we truly have to take a moment to look deep within ourselves and tell the truth. To face our fears and be honest with ourselves. I've seen how this has simultaneously become more difficult and easier as I get older; the difficulty lying in my ability to hide from my own reality.
For instance, I did not start 2017 off the way I would have hoped to. I've deviated from my path, haven't been working out as consistent as I've intended to, and felt like I hit a wall spiritually. But thank God for his grace and mercy that endures. I feel like March is the start to my new year, like I've been given a second chance. Sometimes we lose motivation, get lost on our paths, or just get lazy; but we have to be honest with ourselves about it, address where we went wrong, and move forward.
Our dreams do not become invalid just because we mess up.
So, as we move into a new month, don't be like Nicki: posting pictures on your IG, acting like everything's okay, ignoring the events and changes around you just to appear as if you're #unbothered. Face that ish! Stand in your truth and embrace your growth.
Before you go: Let me know how you plan on facing your truth this month. Do you feel like you've deviated from your path? How do you plan on using this new month to get back on course? Leave your comments below, I'd love to hear.
Peace, peace, peace,